There’s
really no other
way to begin this essay, so here
goes:Yes, I’m into
ASMR, and no, it’s
not a “sex thing.”And
this is coming
from a guy who thinks making toast, cleaning the bathroom, and walking
outside
to get the mail are sex things, so when I
say something’s not about sex, you
have every reason to trust that.I
always admit it when something’s about sex, for the same reason I
always admit
it when it was me who farted:so
people will
know they can believe me when I say otherwise.
Lots of internet types
have already held forth on the ASMR
phenomenon, to the point where I’m pretty sure I don’t even need to
explain
what it is before I continue (but in case my mom or somebody equally
out-of-the-loop is reading this: in brief, it’s this thing where people
make
point-of-view
YouTube videos in which they pretend to be giving you a haircut or
something
like that, and people like it because it’s relaxing and gives them, in
the
parlance of the ASMR community, “head tingles”).
Most of the time, said
holding forth takes the form of
people accusing ASMR of being a weird fetish, people who like it
denying that
it’s a weird fetish, and then the first people calling bullshit.I guess this is because
accusing things of
being weird fetishes gets clicks and pageviews.I probably should have written more essays
where I accuse things of being
weird fetishes, now that I think about it.But I’m not the kind of person who accuses
things of being weird
fetishes.I’m the
kind of person who
waits for other people to accuse things of being weird fetishes, and
then
defends them.Usually,
I do this about actual weird
fetishes, but this time I’m
not.Anyway, my
point is, I can’t fall
asleep unless somebody I don’t know gives me a fake phrenology exam.
This is my
favorite ASMR video of all time, and I'm pretty sure
thinking this is sexual would be weirder
than thinking it's not.
Not that I only watch
ASMR to fall asleep.It
also calms me down after I’ve been doing
something that stresses me out, such as going to work, thinking about
going to
work, thinking about high school, thinking about college, thinking
about
elementary school, talking to people who aren’t enough like me, talking
to
people who are too much like me, checking my bank balance, surfing
WebMD for
diseases I probably have, or walking (because everyone can tell I walk
funny).Okay,
pretty much everything stresses me out
except for trivia competitions and documentaries about England.
Based on this, you
probably think I’m just a nerd and that I
like ASMR because it’s the closest thing I can get to a pretty girl
talking to
me.Except that’s
not it.There are
lots of cool guys, and lots of
women, who enjoy ASMR (or, in the community’s parlance, who “have”
ASMR, which
stands for Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response and is the fancy term
for head
tingles).And
besides, pretty girls talk
to me all the time.It’s
just that I don’t
care unless they’re asking me trivia questions or providing me with
information
about England.
And
I’ve known I had ASMR for a long time, even before all the videos with
all the pretty girls existed — I just didn’t know what it was or what
it was called (it wasn’t called anything yet). I can remember
standing around with a bunch of people in school one time, and I was
like “Do you guys, like, go into this weird trance and start tickling
your own arms when you watch that Bob Ross guy?”, and one other kid was
like “Dude, totally!” and everyone else was like “…the fuck?” Then when I first came across ASMR on YouTube, I was like People are trying to replicate the Bob Ross feeling!
I think the main reason
so many people are bent on insisting
that ASMR is sexual isn’t because the fans are nerdy guys (which isn’t
even
true), but because the most accomplished practitioners are women.I think we’re just not
used to there being
something women are better at that isn’t sexual.
There are art forms at
which, for whatever reason, men seem
to have an advantage (how many female sculptors can you name?).There are art forms in
which talent seems to
be evenly distributed between the genders (e.g., acting, poetry).There are even art forms
for which both men
and women are necessary, as they each have set roles that the other is
biologically incapable of performing (e.g., opera).
If we accept that ASMR is
an art form, then it is significant
even beyond the extent to which the invention of any new art form is
already inherently
significant (which is considerable).This is because it would be the first art form
in human history at
which women have an enormous natural advantage
(at least, as far as we can tell so far).That’s a pretty big deal.And if
you are inclined to argue that ASMR is not an art form, then consider
this: How much of
that reaction might be based on
the fact that our definition of art so far has (probably) been based on
privileging
things that men are usually better at?
Remember, there are two
coherent feminist responses to the allegation that men are better at
most “important”
things:The first —
the one that is
favored by the schools of feminism that have become more popular in
America —
is to argue that this simply isn’t true, and that women are equally
good at all
those things.The
second, however, which
makes just as much sense and, in my opinion, probably has more truth to
it, is
to argue that the deck has been stacked by the fact that we’ve
historically
defined certain things as “important” largely because
men are better at them.In other words, men are
in
fact largely better at the stuff men like to talk about being better
at, but there are just as many
things that
women are better at, and it’s simply that those things have either not
gotten
as much attention or, in some cases, haven’t even had a chance to be
invented
yet.
Of course, there are male
ASMRtists, just as there are, say,
female hockey players.There’s
nothing
wrong with someone exceling at, or seeking to excel at, something that
is
usually dominated by the other gender.But even if they succeed, that doesn’t change
the fact of the other
gender’s dominance on average.If
we
accept the Bob Ross Theory of ASMR’s origins, then ASMR was even
invented by a
man (or discovered by his fans, depending on your point of view).But once again, this
doesn’t change the fact
that all the best (or the most popular, if you think “skill” at ASMR is
impossible
to quantify by a method other than popularity) ASMRtists are female.
Now, this is the part
where trolls or MRAs or the lizard
people or whoever usually step forward to suggest that all of ASMR is a
sham,
that all that’s going on is pretty girls “getting attention” by wearing
lots of
makeup and low-cut tops, that everyone’s just whacking off to the
videos, and
so forth.As silly
as I think this
argument is, it’s clearly not going to go away on its own, so I’ll go
ahead and
address it.
So…Well, you’re
right that most of the top ASMRtists are pretty.I’ll give you that.But the thing is, most of the top anything are pretty, because it’s easier
for good-looking people to get noticed out of the gate at anything: most famous singers are
good-looking, most famous actors
are good-looking, etc.Even
in a field
where talent can be quantified with facts and figures, like a
professional
sport, it remains the case that the breakout celebrities tend to be
easy on the
eyes (e.g., Derek Jeter, Maria Sharapova), but nobody can argue that
this means
they aren’t very, very good at what they do.
(Just as an interesting
aside, it bears mentioning that the
only art form I can think of where physical attractiveness seems to be
a detriment is stand-up comedy; I
think
this is because it is harder for people to laugh along with someone
they feel
inferior to.)
Yes, there are a few
people on YouTube calling themselves
ASMRtists who are clearly a pile of bullshit and only up there to be
sexy — but
once again, this happens in every
field.Meryl Streep
and Megan Fox are
both gorgeous, but it’s just the latter who is only
in movies for this reason.Madonna and the Pussycat Dolls are both
sexually provocative, but it’s
just the latter that only sold
records
for this reason.Saying
that “Hungry
Lips” proves there’s no such thing as ASMR would be like saying Megan
Fox and
the Pussycat Dolls prove there’s no such thing as acting or music.You can’t just ask whether
an artist is
attractive — you have to ask whether attractive is all
that they are.Jesus,
sometimes the single greatest genius in
the entire history of an art form can also happen to be so
attractive that
it literally causes riots (e.g., Paul McCartney).Coincidences happen.It’s a big world.
If the trolls hold their
ground and say fine, someone can be
both attractive and talented, but it remains the case that they
wouldn’t have
gotten nearly as much attention for their talent if they weren’t also
attractive, then the response is, once again, that this is lamentable
but true
of anything.It’s
almost certainly true
that Johnny Depp wouldn’t be so famous or get cast in as many movies if
he didn’t
look like Johnny Depp, but even if he didn’t, he wouldn’t be less
talented,
just equally talented but less famous.Besides, if we’re talking about acting, which
ASMR has a lot of overlap
with, then sometimes being attractive is part of the job (you would,
for
example, have trouble believing a fat guy as James Bond).
And it’s not like ASMR
view counts exactly correlate with
how hot everybody is.If
you ranked ASMRtists by both views and
hotness, you might see a general
scatter-plot type correlation, but you wouldn’t see two parallel lines.Again, I think you’d get
the same results
with acting or music: a higher average
attractiveness at the top and a lower average
attractiveness at the bottom, but nothing even close to an exact
correlation.And
there are obvious
factors affecting this besides audience shallowness: an attractive
person is
probably more likely to have the confidence it takes to go out on that
initial
limb of putting themselves in front of an audience to begin with — and
if you’re
the type of person who trolls people by calling them ugly, then you’re
the
reason why, so you have only yourself to blame for the very thing
you’re
objecting to.
Seriously, how can you
complain about ASMRtists being hot
girls when you fucking know for a fact
that if any girl who wasn’t hot
tried
to do it, you’d immediately call
her
ugly and tell her to kill herself?It’s
not that I object to hecklers and wiseguys so much as that I object to
people
who appear to be too dumb to realize that they
are causing the things they’re supposedly pissed about.And as for their objection
to the fact that
many ASMRtists have Patreon accounts where they take donations…Dude, doing something for
free up front but
asking for donations after the fact has been a thing artists do for,
like,
forever.Would you
also have bellowed “EXPOSED!!”
at Bob Dylan for passing the hat at Café Wha in 1962?The audience is already perfectly well aware
that they don’t have to pay;
they’re
just not dicks.
I didn’t want this whole
essay to be a rebuttal to trolls,
so I’m going to move on now — but anyway, seriously, stop.One of my favorite
ASMRtists retired a couple
of months ago because she got trolled out of her mind as “revenge” for
being
pretty.Go back to
trolling
Scientologists.I
liked you when you
were doing that.
Oh, and don’t say I’m
white knighting.I’m
not white knighting; I’m just not an
asshole.There are
reasons not to tell
people to kill themselves and threaten to rape them other
than the hope that they are going to jump out of your
computer screen and have sex with you, for fuck’s sake.
Okay, now I’m actually
done talking about trolls.
Another seemingly obvious
objection to ASMR as an art form
is that the avowed goal is for
people
to fall asleep.How
can someone call
themselves an artist if putting the entire audience to sleep is what
constitutes a great performance?Well,
I
admit that seems weird.But
that doesn’t
mean it’s wrong, just new.Art
forms
change, disappear altogether, or come into existence, as culture
changes.There are
reasons why ASMR couldn’t have
existed before, and
reasons why it needs to exist now.
ASMR required the
invention of the internet and YouTube to
exist, of course, but that’s not the most significant thing here.Look at it this way:Something is “an art” in
proportion to how
good “artists” are at doing that thing compared to the general
population.In a
world where everyone could sing, being
able to sing wouldn’t be remarkable.If
everyone ran equally fast, we wouldn’t bother to have running races.Do you see where I’m going
with this?Think
about it.What is
ASMR?It’s somebody talking to you in a calming,
gentle, friendly way for a
sustained period of time.
In other words, we now
live in a society that is so mean that
being nice has become an art form.
Even if they’d had the
internet, ASMR probably couldn’t have
become a thing in, say, Victorian England, because everybody was
trained and
pressured to act super mannered and polite all the time.ASMR wouldn’t have been
different enough from
a regular conversation.Contemporary
American society is now basically the opposite of that.The very existence of the term “white
knighting” as a concept that makes sense to people (sorry to bring up
trolls
again) means that we now live in a society where somebody
who is not trying to get you to kill yourself is suspected of
having an ulterior motive.That’s
pretty fucked up right there.Being
nice
becomes an art form when being cruel becomes the norm.
Of course, it’s not like
life was never cruel before. The
Middle Ages were pretty mean, for
example.People
didn’t listen to ASMR
then, because it didn’t exist yet.But
they did spend an awful lot of time kneeling in front of pictures of
this
chick:
Comforting, isn’t she?Round face, wide soft eyes, long soft flat
hair, pretty and feminine enough
to be comforting, but not to a point where it’s aggressive or
distracting.They
called her the Mother of God, and people
prayed to her when they felt too distant from — or too intimidated by —
the
image of the male god who threatens punishment for our worst instincts
and who threw
himself directly into the path of those instincts, knowing that he
would be
killed by them.The
central tenet of her
legend was that she was able, by being so pure and existing so outside
the
brutal rules of daily human life, to magically perform the life-giving
functions of a mother without ever being sexual — because, you know,
the sex
part is distracting.She’s
not ugly, though, because that
would also be distracting in a
different
way.Even though
you address her as “mother,”
she’s always a pretty young woman — even, somehow, when she’s depicted
alongside her son, who’s supposed to be in his mid-30s.There are obvious logical objections to that,
but you can’t argue with results.This
is just what comforts us.
It used to be, anyway.She’s less popular than she was back in the
day.